"Is Azila Your Real Name?
"Is Azila your real name?" I get this question a lot. The answer is, no. My "real" name is actually Kristen.
Surprised? Do I look like a Kristen to you? The story behind why I use the name Azila is a pretty cool one, and I'd love to share it with you.
Years ago, I started having this particular dream over and over again. The dream always went like this:
It was early evening and the sun was beginning to set. I was sitting at the picnic table in my backyard, writing some letters. My dog, Nubby, was at my feet, just chilling out with me like she always did.
I noticed it was getting dark and I felt rushed to finish up with those letters I was writing. It was quite a stack of that old school brown parchment paper. I signed the letters as "Tihi Azila."
As I finished signing the last of the letters, my dog let out a low growl. I noticed she was growling at a fox that had just entered the yard and I told her to hush. The fox approached me cautiously as I held the stack of letters out to him. He carefully chomped down on the letters with his sharp teeth and scurried off with them in his mouth. I watched him disappear through a small hole in the bottom of the fence, and then I felt a feeling of satisfaction. I don't know where those letters were supposed to be going in the possession of that fox, but I do think he was supposed to be running some errands for me.
The dream ended with me calling Nubby to come along as I headed inside the house.
The fox was nothing new to me. Foxes have always been somewhat of a spirit animal for me. That wasn't the first time that a fox had shown up in my dreams, and it wouldn't be the last. If anything, the presence of that fox let me know that there was something super significant going on here.
It took me a while to notice the name I was signing at the end of those letters, though. I started to wonder, where did that name come from? Who the hell is Tihi Azila?
After some research, I learned that Tihi Azila loosely translates to "quiet asylum" in Croatian. To this day, I'm still baffled as to why a Croatian phrase had showed up so clearly in my dream. I don't speak Croatian. Croatian is a Slavic language from which I have no ancestral connection, at least not to my knowledge.
But as I started to think more about it, it actually made sense. The word 'asylum' means 'safe space' or 'sanctuary.' Tihi Azila is a quiet, safe space.
Over time, I adopted the name in various ways. When I started my business in 2014, I played around with a whole bunch of potential biz names. I even tried Kristen's Cauldron for a while. But nothing really felt right... until I started using Azila's Cauldron instead.
I think it's appropriate. I strive to provide a safe place for people to turn to when they need help sorting things out. I'm a protector and a defender of those who need it. I'm a facilitator of healing and empowerment. I honestly believe that I was given this name from somewhere beyond. Maybe it was my spirit guides. Maybe it's a part of some ancestral connection I'm unaware of. Maybe it's rooted in the remnants of a past life. Either way, it's me. It feels more like my "real" name than anything else.